Five Years of the World's Most Repressive Regime

Since the Taliban seized power, Zahra Nader and her fellow journalists have been documenting the violence. This is what she’s seen.

BY CINDI LEIVE

Five years ago today, the Taliban captured Kabul, Afghanistan’s capital city, and launched what the United Nations now calls the most thorough dismantling of women’s rights in modern history. The Taliban have issued more than 100 decrees barring women from going to school after sixth grade, traveling long distances, taking taxis, appearing on TV, speaking on TV, and speaking in public at all.

If you have heard about any of this, it is thanks to journalists like Zahra Nader, the executive director and editor-in-chief of Zan Times, an investigative newsroom led by Afghan women journalists fiercely dedicated to documenting what it’s like to live under gender apartheid. Nader, who once worked in the Kabul bureau of The New York Times, now lives “in exile” in Canada, as do several of her colleagues, and works with an undercover network of reporters inside Afghanistan, who file their stories secretly and at constant risk of discovery. 

Their reporting is a series of gut punches: They have documented the country’s femicides; discovered the Taliban’s practice of arresting women for the clothing infractions known as “bad hijab” and then assaulting them; and exposed the heartbreaking spike in suicides among young girls under Taliban rule. But their work is also a series of miracles, each piece a bracing, furious counterpunch to the idea that women’s voices don’t matter.

I’ve marveled from afar at the work Zan Times does, and the courage with which these journalists do it. On this dark anniversary, The Meteor asked Zahra Nader to shine light on what’s happening. 

Zahra Nader, who runs a newsroom in exile. (Photo by Zahra Rezaee)

August 15 will mark five years since the Taliban took Kabul, a city you had lived and worked in as a journalist. You later told The Meteor that on that day, “it wasn’t only the fall of a country I was witnessing; it was the death of the hopes of my generation.” How do you feel today, on this anniversary?

It’s a sad day for us, because it's a reminder of what we have lost, and how our losses have become normalized…even by countries who in many ways see themselves as champions of women’s rights. The Taliban can be invited to Europe…Diplomatic relationships [are] opening up. It was hard in 2021 to look away from what was happening to women in Afghanistan. But it has become easier five years later to look away. 

Five years ago, a girl of ten or 12 marrying and becoming pregnant was not the norm. And now [the attitude is] yes, it’s sad, women in Afghanistan are imprisoned in their home, but attention is fading...Our job [at Zan Times] is to make the picture so very, so real, that you can't look away. And if anyone does look away, at least we can tell them that you made a choice. It was not that you didn't know. 

We want our reporting to be a kind of lived record of what the Taliban are doing, so if any country is willing to engage with them, they have to be able to look at these stories. We want to make it costly for any country that's engaging with the Taliban to do so. That is our hope.

Girls attend classes at an underground school. (Photo by Fariba Akbari/picture alliance via Getty Images)

I think there may be a global perception that the Taliban changed Afghan women's lives immediately, and things got bad, and they have remained bad. But your reporting makes clear how much additional violence has been enacted over the last five years. What are some of the milestones of how much worse it has gotten since 2021? 

This is the thing: When the Taliban took over, they did not implement all of their policies of gender apartheid [at once]. In their first week, they said that women working in the public sector should stay home. In a month, they closed the schools. After four months, they banned women from traveling. They were slowly testing the water—how would the world react? Would the world play along? And the Taliban has seen that attention fades. That the world condemns the Taliban's policies with rhetoric, with words, but with little real action

Let me tell you about two laws they implemented this year.
One, passed in May, is basically a divorce law that sets no minimum age for a girl to be married off….[it essentially] legalizes child marriage. At the same time, this law defines that no woman can get a divorce without her husband’s consent—even if he’s beating her. Even if a woman's husband is missing for a very long time and she wants a divorce to move on in her life—which is allowed according to Islamic law—she has to wait until [the age at which] he would die! Unless he is missing in war or there is a high chance he was killed, she cannot get a divorce.

Then there is the criminal code, which was passed in January. It says that if a woman is beaten to the point that her bone is broken, and if she can prove in court that her husband [was responsible], the judge may sentence her husband to 15 days in prison. But if that woman goes to her parents' home [for safety] and the parents refuse to return her, the parents and the wife will be in prison for three months. That's six times higher than the punishment for committing violence!

Am I hearing you correctly that there would be no punishment for the man as long as he didn’t break a bone?

No punishment. Also, we found out that for every four women who died, only one man was arrested and that arrest was sometimes for a day and they were released. Meaning that there is complete impunity for the killing of women in Afghanistan.

You alluded before to one of the reasons that your reporting matters, which is that it could increase international outrage toward the Taliban. What are the other reasons you do this?

I was a woman journalist in Afghanistan. I could still be a woman journalist inside Afghanistan if I was not [in exile]. And if I were being held in prison in my own home, what would I want? I would want somebody to make it possible for me to feel that
I am still a professional woman. That I am still contributing to my society. That I'm still part of humanity. In a country where the sense of humanity has been taken away from you—when you are not allowed to choose your own clothes, you cannot go out by yourself—what kind of human are you? So it is very important for me personally to give that sense of humanity to women journalists in Afghanistan. Sometimes we talk about the risks they take and the security, and I ask them why they are doing this work. They tell me, partly we need money to survive [only seven percent of women in Afghanistan are employed]. But more than that, we need hope. We need a purpose to live for. And this work gives us a purpose. 

We interviewed a woman…[who had been] brutally abused and raped by the Taliban inside prison. My colleague asked her, why are you telling me this story? The Taliban might find you again. And this woman said, I might not survive…but I want somebody to hear my story. That’s the level of misery and helplessness for the women of Afghanistan: Your biggest dream becomes just to be heard. Not, “I want justice.” Not “I want equal rights.” Their only hope is for somebody to care [about] their story.

Initially I was really excited about changing the situation in Afghanistan for women and girls. But from what I’ve seen over the past five years, that's not going to happen. So now—if I can keep one woman journalist inside Afghanistan safe, help her get paid and give her a purpose to live for, I think that's my job. 

You clearly care so much for your journalists. How do you help them stay safe while doing a job that is very dangerous to do?

When we have a story we are interested in, the first question is, is it safe to cover it? 
And if something is high-risk, we might report it from outside the country. We did a story about a female YouTuber who was killed by the Taliban, but who [they said was] a suicide. Two of our colleagues tried to cover it from inside Afghanistan, but received suspicious phone calls [and threats]. So they shared information with us, and my colleague and I outside the country covered the story instead. Sources feel safer talking to us sometimes: I'm in Canada; I'm out of the reach of the Taliban.

But for our journalists inside Afghanistan, we take precautions. Nobody works under their real name. And they are not allowed to contact the Taliban—if we need to get comment, those of us outside the country will call. We hope that all of our collaborators’ immediate families know they work for us, because in case something happens, they can let us know. But one of our colleagues is living [near] her uncle. She says that her uncle is a misogynist and very happy that the Taliban came and kept women from working…Her uncle doesn’t know [that she works as a journalist] and she doesn’t know what he’d do if he found out. He might go to the Taliban.

Afghan women and young children waiting for care at a rural clinic during the summer of 2025 (via Getty images)

What do you hope for the women of Afghanistan, five years from now? 

I hope that Afghan women will be allowed to choose their own leaders, to be part of social life, to have their rights respected and protected. That hope feels distant—is it even possible? But that’s my hope. 

And in five years, I hope that Zan Times has branches all over Afghanistan, run by women journalists who are leading in their own local communities. Because if Afghan women lead, with  the understanding and awareness that they are building something for the next generation, I believe we will have peace and prosperity. Because women are less likely to start fighting each other, right? We might occasionally fight on social media, but it will not be disastrous for Afghanistan.

All of this seems very far off for me, but…without hope we cannot move forward. 

You can follow Zan Times’s reporting here.


More to read, from The Meteor’s coverage of Afghanistan:

Two journalists on the first few months of panic and despair (February 2022)
Just half a year after Kabul fell to the Taliban, journalist Mariane Pearl speaks with Zahra Joya and Zahra Nader about how much women’s lives had changed.

A soccer captain chronicles her daring rescue mission (August 2023)
The Meteor interviews Farkhunda Muhtaj, who helped a group of teenage girl soccer players, known as Ayenda, flee Afghanistan in 2021.

Why don’t we treat “gender apartheid” as a crime? (August 2024)
With the Taliban’s power now entrenched for three years, we ask Malala Fund’s Afghanistan director, Sahar Halaimzai, about what the world can do about it.

This professor watched her country disappear, and chronicled it (August 2025)
Afghan feminist scholar Lima Halima-Khalil reflects on the last four years of Taliban rule.

An Afghan refugee who fled fear—and found it here (January 2026)
As the second Trump administration begins, Lima Halima-Khalil describes what it’s like to be “the other” in a country she came to for safety

Teen girls on defying the Taliban to get an education (April 2026)
Journalist Jessie Williams speaks with students and teachers at a secret school in Afghanistan, where girls’ education beyond sixth grade is strictly banned.


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In Peru, a High-Stakes Election for Women

BY LORENA PROCHAZKA

Women’s rights under attack. Hard-won gains rolled back. A political agenda moving steadily backward. Sounds familiar? As Donald Trump’s administration chips away at women’s freedoms in the United States, women inhabit a similar battlefield a few thousand miles to the south in Peru, where I am based as a journalist. Heading into the final stretch of a deeply polarizing presidential election, we find ourselves stuck between a rock and a hard place.

After a chaotic first round, the runoff has come down to an unexpected contender and an infamous veteran, respectively: leftist Roberto Sánchez and right-wing Keiko Fujimori. After initially trailing Sánchez, Fujimori—a woman—has clawed back to a lead of around 30,000 votes. Though the race remains open, with 99% of ballots counted, each update makes it more likely that Fujimori, who has run four times, will finally win.

At first glance, the candidates couldn’t seem more different: Fujimori’s Fuerza Popular (FP) carries a legacy of human rights violations linked to her father, president-turned-dictator Alberto Fujimori. Sánchez’s Juntos por el Perú (JP) promises to defend human rights while positioning the candidate as heir of socialist ex-president Pedro Castillo

But here’s the rub: Neither party appears to have women’s interests at heart. Peru is following a global trend of setbacks in women’s rights amid rising conservative pressures, but in our case the trend pops up across the political spectrum. As former Minister for Women and Vulnerable Populations Marcela Huaita tells The Meteor, those advocating for human rights are "no longer pursuing a progressive agenda, but one of resistance.” 

Presidential candidate Keiko Fujimori speaks to the press after the release of the first quick-count results (Photo by Klebher Vasquez/Anadolu via Getty Images)

Peru is already at a point where reports of femicide have increased, and thousands of sexual abuse cases have gone unpunished. To make matters worse, current president José María Balcázar has defended child marriage and normalized sexual relationships between teachers and students

Huaita sees “no ground for optimism.” We already know what FP stands for, she points out: It opposes same-sex marriage, abortion even in the case of rape, and comprehensive sex education, which FP charges will “homosexualize” children. FP has a natural ally in ultra-conservative Renovación Popular (RP). Together, they’re just one vote away from a Senate majority. And RP passed a law that eliminates “gender perspective”—a framework used to address gender inequality, gender-based violence, and sexual and gender diversity. 

It's not just a matter of rhetoric: This law removes the concept of gender from all legislation, obscuring how gender-based power dynamics drive violence and discrimination, Huaita explains. It limits access to comprehensive sexual education, health and reproductive rights; it means even more impunity for abusers and less support for survivors. It also sends an important institutional message: Women are not a priority.  

The new administration will decide whether to preserve or dismantle the “gender perspective” framework. But it’s not as if a Sánchez presidency would have necessarily saved the project: Both Fujimori’s and leftist Castillo’s party supported the law eliminating it. 

And Peru’s left has not always aligned with progressive positions on gender issues. For instance, Pedro Castillo opposed the gender-equality approach in education. Sánchez, who claims to be his political heir, has sent mixed signals on women’s rights. After criticism over the absence of gender-focused policies during his first campaign, he presented a revised government plan expanding on them. But just a day earlier, he had signed a commitment to an evangelical church emphasizing "family, life, and religious freedom.” His political friendships also raise some questions. Ricardo Belmont, president of the OBRAS party, which backed Sánchez ahead of the runoff, stated that “legalizing abortion will allow me to shoot anyone who accesses it.” Meanwhile, Antauro Humala, leader of a radical nationalist-socialist movement—once a close ally whom Sánchez has since distanced himself from—is openly homophobic.

Peru’s women had a bad candidate and a worse candidate to choose for president—and it looks like the worse candidate has won. But no matter what comes next, it’s clear they’ll have to wage a battle for women’s rights on their own terms, regardless of political party.

 


Lorena Prochazka is a journalist and documentary producer at Pacha Films. She specializes in documentary research, development and production of human-centered stories across Latin America.


A Secret School for Girls

Inside the clandestine network of classrooms defying the Taliban in Afghanistan

By Jessie Williams

A group of teenage girls and young women gather in a nondescript room with pale walls, chatting and laughing. They have just finished their classes for the week and are about to head home. But they must leave one by one, so as not to draw any attention. If someone asks them where they have been, they say they were visiting the doctor. If they think someone might be on to them, the teachers move their classes to another person’s house. They leave their books at home. They must not be caught. 

These girls live in Afghanistan, where education for girls beyond sixth grade is banned by the Taliban. They attend an underground girls’ school – one of five an Afghan NGO quietly runs across the country, with 28 teachers in different provinces providing free education to around 1,000 students, ranging in age from 13 to 45. 

“I was very unhappy when the Taliban closed my school,” says Ada*, 15, who was in eighth grade when the Taliban returned to power on a hot summer day in 2021, following the withdrawal of U.S. and coalition forces. “I had depression.” The secret school she attends opened in the months afterward. “I feel better [now],” she says. “When I see the teachers and girls, I have power.”

An underground classroom. (Courtesy of Frontline Women's Fund)

As a new school year begins in Afghanistan, more than 2.2 million girls are currently out of school. But some of them are defying the ban. Over the past few years, classrooms have emerged in the shadows—cropping up in basements, living rooms and bedrooms around the country, away from the prying eyes of the Taliban, who have informants to catch people violating their strict codes. The schools use certain tactics to evade those informants, including staggering the timing of classes, so that some girls attend in the afternoon and some in the evening. If the girls think they’re being followed, they change their route. Madrassas, or religious schools, are still allowed, so if they are caught, they say they were going there.

The schools run by the NGO, which we can’t name for safety reasons, started through a network of trusted people in different communities. They cost about $60,000 to run each year, which a grant from the Frontline Women’s Fund, an initiative that supports women’s rights activists around the world, helps cover. One class was established and then another, and before long the network had blossomed into a web of clandestine schools, turning girls into what the Taliban fears most: educated women. “An educated woman changes the world,” says Laleh, 25, who teaches English at one of the schools. “An educated mother nurtures, trains, educates her kid. The kid changes the society.”

The Meteor spoke to the teachers and students over Zoom on the condition that we hide their identities. The stakes are high; if the Taliban ever found out about the schools, the teachers would be sent to prison, while the girls themselves could also face imprisonment and beatings. Despite the risks, the educators continue to teach. “When I was a girl, I studied chemistry. My father said ‘It's not safe to study.’ But I wanted to have a voice,” says Laleh. “When I teach the girls, they have the vocabulary to talk. It empowers me. When they learn, I think that I have done something in the world, that I didn't live a worthless life.”

Without education, she says, “our people don't even know how they should live and what their rights are…When half of our society is paralyzed, how can our country move forward?” 

Since returning to power the Taliban has systematically eroded women’s and girls’ rights. Education for girls over sixth grade was the first to go, followed by barring women from university and nearly all forms of employment, then prohibiting them from playing sports, and even leaving the house without being completely covered and accompanied by a mahram or male guardian. The Taliban’s latest decree permits men to beat their wives as long as they don’t break any bones or leave open wounds.

The UN says that Afghan women are facing the most severe women’s rights crisis in the world, with many activists and human rights organizations calling it “gender apartheid”—a term meaning the systemic oppression, discrimination, and segregation of a specific group based on gender.

Workbooks from a classroom. (Courtesy of Frontline Women's Fund)

In January 2025, the International Criminal Court issued arrest warrants for the supreme leader and chief justice of the Taliban, accusing them of crimes against humanity for the persecution of women and girls. But nothing has been done to enforce the warrants. Even worse, the international community has begun to accept and normalize the Taliban as the de facto government, despite its draconian policies—like establishing embassies in Kabul, welcoming diplomats appointed by the Taliban, and inviting them to international summits

Meanwhile, cuts to foreign aid budgets have meant dwindling humanitarian support for Afghanistan, and while the UN has continued its operations in the country, it faces major challenges—the main one being the ban on Afghan women entering UN premises, along with a 50 percent funding gap for UN work, which makes it difficult to provide services directly to women at a time when they desperately need it.

"Maybe they will arrest me and I go to jail. But I have to do this.”

Many Afghan women feel like the world has forgotten about them. Mariam, the 30-year-old executive director of the NGO that runs the schools, was a head teacher before the Taliban swept through the country. She says the international community should be doing more. “For five years girls and women can't go to school. It’s terrible. But nobody is doing anything,” she says. “Why aren’t the UN with us?” 

Mariam says there are many women who are struggling financially now that they cannot work, and girls are being forced into early marriages. At the same time, recent clashes with Pakistan and war in neighboring Iran are exacerbating the already dire economic crisis

For these girls, the school offers a glimmer of hope in an increasingly dark world, giving them the chance to forge their own futures. Bahar, a 19-year-old with a wide smile, was in 10th grade when the Taliban closed the schools. “When I come here I feel so excited,” she says, giggling. “I feel complete and confident.” Her favorite subjects are English and math, and one day she hopes to become a psychologist. “Education is very important to me. When girls use education, they can help their family.” 

All of the girls’ families are supportive of them attending the classes, despite the dangers. “I feel happy because I improve my skills in this school,” says one student, Lama, 18. She especially loves art because it allows her to express her feelings, but wants to be a doctor when she’s older. “I want to help my people, always.”

Rehan, 21, a math teacher, says when she was her students’ age, “I had these opportunities as a student and I felt great. They should become what they want; I always teach them to become stronger.” Many of her students are vulnerable, she says, and so she makes sure to focus on their mental health. “When I come to class I ask them, ‘How was your day? How are you?’ Sometimes many of them don't have a good situation at home. First, I make sure they are safe, that they don't have any mental problems. Then I start to teach what I planned. I like to make the class a safer place for them.”

As the students and teachers talk, it becomes clear: These are much more than just schools. They also seem to be sanctuaries for women and girls to connect, laugh, and dream with friends. They are like a family, and Mariam, the head of the NGO, is the matriarch. She calls the students “my daughters” and sees supporting them as her responsibility. “It's a very big challenge,” she says. “We are afraid [of the Taliban finding out]. Maybe they will arrest me and I go to jail. But I have to do this.”

Despite the constant fear, they all still try to find joy – even if it’s fleeting. They dance and sing together when no one is looking. These girls are growing hope in the shadows; they’re creating cracks of light streaming through the darkness. “Sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry,” says Mariam. “Maybe when the Taliban go, we will get our rights [back]. We want a new generation to feel peace.”

 

*All names in the piece have been changed to protect the subjects’ identity.  

 


Jessie Williams
is a freelance journalist focused on international affairs, humanitarian issues, and women’s rights, with work published in The Guardian, TIME Magazine, Foreign Policy, Al Jazeera, and more. She has reported from Syria, Lebanon, Iraq, and Ukraine, among other places.


The Iran War Will Touch Everything

 

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"You can't say that. I'm Iranian."

 

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She Fled Fear—and Found It Here

A woman who escaped danger in Afghanistan reflects on what life is like under ICE.

By Lima Halima-Khalil

I drop my three-year-old daughter off at library classes every morning. The library is two minutes from our home in Ashburn, Virginia. Each time, the same thought crosses my mind: Do I have my ID on me? Will my driver’s license be enough if I am stopped?

It is highly unlikely that I will encounter ICE on a two-minute drive to the library. Ashburn isn’t exactly an ICE hub. And yet my fear is constant, embodied, and real. And by the way, I am an American citizen.

I grew up believing America was a mighty country, one so powerful that the rest of the world stood intimidated by its strength. When I first came to the United States in 2006 for an education program from Afghanistan, a country still at war, the vastness of this place revealed itself not only in its size, but in the generosity of the people I met. After that, America became a place I always returned to. I have been part of the American education system since 2010, returning several times for various degrees. I’ve witnessed multiple presidential elections and participated in the most recent one as an American citizen myself.

But after all these years, one lesson about my new home stands out above the rest: This country is led, shaped, and sustained by fear. Outside this country, nations tremble at the military and economic power of the United States, but inside it, people live as though danger is always lurking.

Fear raises money and sustains campaigns. Fear keeps people glued to screens and locked into cycles of outrage. Fear sells guns, justifies surveillance, expands borders and prisons. Much of this fear is not grounded in lived reality but manufactured and amplified by politicians who rely on it to govern. Fear spills into kitchens, sidewalks, classrooms, and moments meant to be ordinary and human.

Hamila-Khalil and a classmate on graduation day at Tufts University in 2019. She received her Masters of International Law and Diplomacy. (Courtesy of the author)

One of the most brutal tools in this ecosystem right now is ICE. Raids, detentions, and aggressive enforcement practices operate not simply as immigration policy, but as a mechanism of fear, reminding entire communities that their sense of belonging is fragile and conditional. ICE does not need to be everywhere to be effective. The possibility of its presence is enough.

This pervasive fear turns ordinary routines into sites of anxiety. I remember hesitating before offering to share our Thanksgiving meal with our nosy white neighbor, suddenly gripped by thoughts I never imagined I would carry. What if he calls the police on us and claims I was  trying to poison him? What if kindness itself is misread as a threat, or hospitality as danger?

Afghans discovered how quickly they could become the “other,” regardless of their sacrifices, their loyalty, and their love for this country.

I recognize these impulses, because fear is not new to me. I lost my school, my home, my loved ones, and eventually my country because I wanted freedom from fear. Millions of Afghans had believed in democracy when America promised it to us for 20 years, until the United States withdrew from Afghanistan in 2021. We voted, we hoped, we worked alongside our American partners for a shared dream, but that freedom never came. In 2020, when my 24-year-old sister was killed by the Taliban in an IED attack in her car, that truth became undeniable. I understood then that Afghanistan was no longer safe, and that realization is what led me to come to the United States permanently.

When the Taliban returned to power in 2021, many Afghans, including members of my own family, were evacuated and brought into this country by our American allies. They arrived in this country under extremely harsh circumstances, believing they would find dignity, safety, and a chance to contribute. Instead, they discovered how quickly they could become the “other,” regardless of their sacrifices, their loyalty, and their love for this country.

Halima-Khalil on her last trip to the Bamyan province in Afghanistan in 2020. (Courtesy of the author)

I was reminded of this again in November of last year, after a man from Afghanistan, who had been trained and worked for the CIA in his country, shot two National Guard members in Washington, D.C. Overnight, an entire community began to be seen, once again, as terrorists. Instead of a careful and humane conversation about mental health, trauma, or resettlement failures, the Trump administration halted all immigration from Afghanistan and pledged to re-examine green card holders from 19 countries. Afghans, many of whom fled the very forces America claims to oppose, were once again forced to prove their innocence.

This is how fear functions. It identifies a moment of tragedy, strips it of context, assigns collective guilt, and converts pain into political currency.

For a long time, I believed that fear in this country belonged primarily to people of color, that violence was uneven, predictable, and racialized. Then the killings of Renée Good and later Alex Pretti shattered that belief. They forced a painful realization that in today’s America, no one is safe, not five-year-old Liam Conejo Ramos, not women citizens like Dulce Consuelo Díaz Morales and Nasra Ahmed, not elderly citizens like Scott Thao or longtime residents like Harjit Kaur, not white Americans, either.

Lately, I have felt fear settle into my own body in a way I did not expect. I realized I had been going to sleep holding fear, living with the same quiet dread that so many people here carry without ever naming it. One night, I caught myself thinking, almost with disbelief: Congratulations, Lima, you are an American now.

But it does not have to be this way. Americans deserve more than this constant weight of dread, clinging to them like a second skin. We deserve a country where fear is not the engine that keeps the system running, where safety is not promised to some by threatening others, and where power is not sustained by keeping people afraid.




Lima Halima-Khalil, Ph.D., is the program director of the “I Stand With You” campaign at ArtLords, a collective she co-founded, where she mobilizes global awareness against gender apartheid in Afghanistan. Her research explores youth resilience amid violence and displacement. Her writing has appeared in Foreign Policy, TRT World, and academic publications.


Courage and cigarettes

Women Around the World

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